Your Personal “Good Friday”

Yesterday, I thought how God gave his only son for us – I began to think of all the suffering God knew Jesus would undergo; God knew Jesus would at some point question whether God had forsaken him… But God still sent Jesus because He knew the masterplan.  God knew Jesus’ name would be above all names, that demons would tremble and run at the very sound of Jesus’ name.  God knew Jesus would be sat on his right hand, God knew Jesus would be worshipped in the heavens and the earth. So God sent his only son to suffer and die on the cross – so that anyone who believed on Jesus would be saved and have eternal life.

‘For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.’  John 3:16

If it feels as though you are in your own personal hellish suffering and you don’t understand how God would allow it or whether God has forsaken you.  Remember, just like His son Jesus – God has a plan to lift you, prosper you, glorify Himself in you to give you hope and a future. It might feel like the darkest time of your life but one day it will be looked back on as your own personal “Good Friday”

‘… For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.’ Jeremiah 29:11

Hosanna in the highest! Most High God, our Alpha and Omega.

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Jump For Life!

Hello everyone!  It’s been a while since I posted a blog… I’m inspired by two incidents that happened yesterday.  On the way to work to central London, someone jumped under a train, the station was evacuated.  The buses were packed so as I made my way to work on foot, I began to feel a huge amount of empathy and sense of a waste of life for the person who attempted to take their life.  Unfortunately on the way home, someone else jumped to their death infront of a fast train.  I feel grateful that I have hope and faith – some people encounter so many setbacks and obstacles in life that they find it hard to keep alive.  I believe no matter how bad our situations, there is a light at the end of the tunnel… if we can just remember that another day rises after midnight.  I’m glad I’m alive because I have been there…. I suffered from depression, around 7 years ago, I was at my lowest ebb remember thinking (obviously the devil’s lie) ‘no one will miss you if you were gone.. this pain is too much to bare… end it tonight’ I was alone at a bus stop – a group of Hispanic evangelists came up to me and broke my chain of thought.  They told me they were led to pray for me and asked if they could.  They laid hands on me and began to pray – I realized God loved me very much, he knew my thoughts, he saw my need and came to my aid expressly.  In 2013 I remember going through complete continual turmoil, the anguish gripped me to a point that I stayed at home by myself in fear confined to my sofa, gripped by fear, those same lies tried to take hold of my soul.   I remember feeling as though Jesus himself was standing behind me to the side of the sofa – I heard the Word ‘Shalom’ (meaning peace).  This broke the chains of defeat and I began singing Shalom over and over again.  I have never looked back since, the spirit of suicide was rebuked. The devil is a thief and liar trying to stifle and steal people’s lives one way or another BUT GOD kept me, so I wouldn’t let go!  We overcome by blood of Jesus and the word of our testimony.  Thank you Jesus!!

Psalms 34:17-20

When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles.  The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.  Many are the afflictions of the righteous but the Lord delivers him out of them all.

Hope for Tomorrow

Michiboo xx

Growing Pains

Have you ever wondered why?  How?  Meandering through life sometimes can leave you winded and filled with questions.  Why did my life turn out this way?  Why didn’t I get the same breaks as the next person?  The truth is every event and circumstance in our lives were not meant to break us.  The disappointments, bad breaks builds us up… if we allow it.  It will build resilience within us in the same way a body builder’s muscles get stronger through tough training and resistance.  Bad times have taught me to appreciate the good times.  Disloyal people taught me the character traits to avoid and appreciate the good traits in great people.

My focus is changing from negative aspects of an experience to recognising the lessons in each experience.  I am learning every thing that happens is an opportunity to grow.  Nothing ever just happens, there is a purpose for it, whether it is to prepare you for a similar event or to give you insight to help a loved one later down the line.  Sometimes pain can be beneficial – physically if we don’t have any symptoms, often manifested as pain, we would never know something was wrong.  Just remember you will find the purpose for your pain.

 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Jeremiah 29:11 NIV Bible

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Faithful To The End

if you’ve read my blog before, you already know that I try to keep it real… because life is real.  Life sometimes delivers some nasty blows and kicks to the teeth but everyone who is alive, is a survivor!  There are times I’ll be thinking, I am so blessed and there are also times when I think why? why it gotta be like this?  The thing is every day we wake up, it’s a fresh start, yesterday is gone and today is to be executed with hope.  I forget sometimes just what a blessing it is to wake up, to be able to walk, to be able to say those precious words ‘I love you’ to my children…. what a blessing!

Honestly, today was a long day… I got home and I had a choice to make…. do I dwell on the negative experience of today or do I acknowledge the blessings within today.  Every day has its ups and downs but I am realizing that it is beneficial to my mind, soul and spirit to dwell on things that are positive because those are the things that nurture my mind, soul and spirit.

God has been a constant in my life… even when I wasn’t necessarily thinking about or praying to God… God was thinking about me, blessing me, protecting me, helping me and literally upholding me!

Lamentations 3:22-23

22. It is because of the Lord’s mercy and loving-kindness that we are not consumed, because His [tender] compassions fail not.  23. They are new every morning; great and abundant is Your stability and faithfulness.

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Don’t Tag Me! I ain’t Facebook

Words are powerful; they can break or make you… if you allow it to stay resident in your spirit.  When people’s words are complimentary it can give us a sense of pride and happiness.   However what about the people that aren’t so nice, using their words as audible poison?  If we’re not careful it can leave a sense of shame and degradation in our spirits.   I consciously refuse any negative labels that do not bear witness to the greatness I have within me, speaking the word of God.

‘You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the One who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.’ 1 John 4:4

God says I am Blessed! So anything that contradicts the word of God, I quickly nullify and root up before they start to grow weeds in my spirit.   God says He wonderfully and fearfully made me, so any bully that tries to evoke low self-esteem with harsh criticism or name calling gets shut down with the word of God – I am made in the image of God.

Don’t become a prisoner to the words of others, know who you are and reaffirm yourself frequently to break the cycle of bullies.   Don’t let others mess with your identify and how you see yourself – I am talking from experience, refuse their labels before it gets down into your spirit…  go ahead, you’re more than a conqueror!!

‘Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you;he will never leave you nor forsake you.’ Deuteronomy 31:6

Hope for tomorrow

Michiboo xx


I attended a church christening last weekend.  Like myself, there were a lot of visitors.  Someone on the same row as me seemed to be troubled, mumbling to himself and impulsively stamping his feet.  It wasn’t very loud but it was audible because I was near him, soon he began to leave the Church.  Someone looked behind and gave me a knowing look, I simply stated the obvious ‘He’s not well’, she quietly replied ‘Then why did He come? He knows He’s not well’.  I felt compelled to say ‘I think Jesus came for people just like him, this is exactly where he needs to be’.

We all know Jesus was a healer, a peacemaker, the miracle working Son of God.  How often do we forget that Jesus came to heal the sick and to bring peace to the troubled.  A lot of us may not display the telling signs of imperfection, but we all are imperfect and it’s when we’re at our lowest ebb, at our weakest, that Jesus’ character and power shines!

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

2 Corinthians 12:9 NIV

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Tears – Jesus Wept

Do u know how it feels to cry?  to ball up into one and still feel like a thousand pieces?

Do u know how it feels to ache?  to try and make it okay but your broken heart feels the same?

I know, yes I know how it is to feel pain

Do you know how it is to bear the world on your shoulders? not only take the weight but pay their debt?  Do you know how it is to be so afraid you sweat blood tears? to give so much and not even get a glass of water back?….. to be jeered by and see eyes of hatred by the ones you love the most?…. to be killed by those you want to save?

I know, Lord, yes I know how it is to feel pain

But Lord I also know that you felt more pain more than I could ever feel

I know, you know

So when you feel like you can’t carry on, remember there is someone who knows exactly where you are but also knows where you really belong!

It only takes faith to be freed from these burdens

There is power in the Lord’s pain, power in the blood of Jesus

Would you be free? Would you believe?

There is power in the name of Jesus

There is power in the name of Jesus

You can be freed in the name of Jesus

Take the pain, I love you Jesus

You took the pain, I love you Jesus

You see, God knows how it is to feel pain

He also knows how many tears you shed

He wants to take the pain from you, if you just let Him in

But do you know He knows?

You gotta know, Jesus knows

So now you know, Jesus knows

Psalms 56:8

You keep track of all my sorrows.  You have collected all my tears in your bottle.  You have recorded each one in your book.

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